So, I've been thinking about downsizing for quite a while...even before Harv died. I've thought for a while that it'd be a good idea to downsize before I had to or even really wanted to... And at least a year ago -- or maybe more than that, I started the search.
My dream was to find a home that had a great view of the bay and was one story and had a small yard. There were quite a few homes with great views, but the combo of small, one-story and small yard didn't always come with that. And I didn't want an increase in the price of my home. Ideally, I'd spend less. But the housing here in this part of the world is crazy. And, while my home has increased in value over the years, so have many others that are even smaller.
I looked on Redfin. I looked as I drove around town. My realtor searched. We went to a few homes. There were a couple that were kinda tempting but still didn't feel exactly right.
And then one day, this house showed up on Redfin. My realtor sent me a text about it, too. It's older, but has been nicely renovated and really felt right as soon as I went inside. It doesn't have a view of the bay, but it's in a neighborhood that feels pretty cozy.
Long story short, it all worked out and the house became mine today.
As I drove to sign the papers this morning, I cried. It just seemed so huge. You'd think they would've been tears because of leaving this house where we've lived and loved and shared lots of things for 18 years. I'm sure it was some of that, but it really just felt so HUGE to be buying my very own place.
Almost wrong and not wrong at the same time to be moving on with my life.
When I arrived at my new house with the dogs this afternoon, I took them for a walk in the nearby park...and I sobbed. I can't really explain it. I know there's lots of emotion in this whole picture, but I can't identify exactly what the tears are for...
But what I think is that it's happiness, excitement, fear, sadness, grief, joy, anticipation, and probably a million more emotions that I can't identify.
So thankful for the life I shared with Harv. So thankful for the life I have. So thankful for all that is to come...
2 comments:
Thank you for sharing, Carrie! It's a powerful moment. Hugs!
Hi Carrie-As you know I never read FB unless something pops up in my e mail and I'd been thinking about you lately. You are such a wonderful writer. I've read a few of your blogs in the past and think you could be a professional writer! Anyway, so very excited for you about your new home and that it feels so right and I can totally get all the emotions you've been feeling with this transition. It's a natural and good thing to go through. Missing you and praying all else is going well. Sending lots of love your way:) Love Leslie and Jim
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