Carrie's Gonna Write: Trapped

Tuesday, February 25, 2020

Trapped

I was a daughter.
I was a wife.
I was (am) a mother.
I was a caregiver.
I am a widow.

I am a person floating somewhere between what was and what is yet to be.

I feel like my life is full and empty at the same time.

Who am I?

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Dawn said...: Carrie, just found your blog and deeply moved. ♥; October 26, 2020 at 12:53 AM
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Fun things in life (in no special order)

"clogging" ;-)
"real" mail
a baby's smile
a book that can't be put down
a game of "Witch 'n Colors"
a good cup of coffee
a nap
a nice boat ride on the bay
a puppy who's excited to see you
a rainy summer day
a whole, unblemished sand dollar
a wonderful husband
alone time
amazing new trails
an afternoon glass of wine
an unexpected kindness
apples fresh from the tree
autumn leaves
being forgiven
Ben & Jerry's Chunky Monkey ice cream
books
Cape Lookout
change
cuddling with my girls in the morning
daffodils
dahlias!!!! (who woulda thought?!)
delicious food
dinner without having to do the dishes
discovering wonderful new restaurants
forgiving
friends -- lifelong and newer, too! (that includes friends in Texas. ♥)
garlic
generosity
good family
good music
happy memories
home
hope
hugs
hydrangeas
Kalaloch
Kettle Chips - Cheddar Beer flavor
last minute get-together with friends who know I need it
laughter
Mama's front porch
Montreat, NC
my children
my girls still wanting to kiss me good-bye and hello
national parks
not too hot, not too cold
ocean breezes
old photographs
old-fashioned hymns
peace
people who believe in me
play-dough
puppy breath
quiet
quilts
remebering my father's smile
remembering my mother laughing
renewing that spark
riding my bike on a sunshiny day
rocking chairs
rocks
running just for fun
San Francisco
silence
sitting still
summer rain
summertime in Bellingham
sunset on the coast
sunshine
surprising my children with some silliness
sweet tea like Mama used to make
taking a walk by myself
talking with my girls
that "coo"-y sound that babies make
the Oregon coast first thing in the morning
the rushing river by one's campsite
the smell of autumn in the air
the spring-green new growth on evergreen trees
the way Raney's tail wags first thing in the morning
Tootsie Pops
traditions
uninterrupted sleep
walking to school
watching nature right outside my window... birds, squirrels, raccoons, deer, rabbits
Whatcom Falls Park
white shirts

Books I liked...for various reasons

A Call to Action: Women, Religion, Violence and Power by Jimmy Carter
A Million Miles in a Thousand Years by Donald Miller
Bee Season by Myla Goldberg
Bird by Bird by Anne Lammott
Blue Like Jazz by Donald Miller
East of Eden by John Steinbeck
Ecology of a Cracker Childhood by Janise Ray
Ellen Foster by Kaye Gibbons
Emma Jean Lazarus Fell Out of a Tree by Lauren Tarshis
Empire of the Summer Moon by S. C. Gwynne
Free Range Chickens by Simon Rich
Girl With A Pearl Earring by Tracy Chevalier
Half-Broke Horses by Jeannette Walls
Hattie Big Sky by Kirby Larson
Homecoming by Cynthia Voight
Miss American Pie: A Diary of Love, Secrets and Growing Up in the 1970s by Margaret Sartor
Nickel and Dimed: On (Not) Getting By in America by Barbara Ehrenreich
One Thousand White Women: The Journals of May Dodd by Jim Fergus
Peace Like a River by Leif Enger
Raney by Clyde Edgerton
Roll of Thunder, Hear My Cry by Mildred Taylor
Rules by Cynthia Lord
Simple Abundance: A Daybook of Comfort and Joy by Sarah Ban Breathnach
So B. It by Sarah Weeks
Stuff White People Like by Christian Lander
The Art of Racing in the Rain by Garth Stein
The Flamboya Tree by Clara Olink Kelly
The Glass Castle by Jeannette Walls
The Guernsey Literary and Potato Peel Pie Society by Mary Ann Shaffer and Annie Barrows
The Poisonwood Bible by Barbara Kingsolver
The Red Tent by Anita Diamant
The Secret Life of Bees by Sue Monk Kidd
Their Eyes Were Watching God by Zora Neale Hurston
To Kill a Mocking Bird by Harper Lee
Traveling Mercies by Anne Lammott
Water for Elephants by Sara Gruen