Saturday, August 29, 2015


Sometimes I doubt and get discouraged about Christianity and the church. I get cynical and bothered by churchy things.

But, I tell you what. If there ever was a sign of God at all, it is in the community of good people that surrounds our family...and have surrounded us throughout this journey. 

How do you doubt goodness when so much love encircles you? 

Every day... Even every hour since Harv declared he was in hospice, people have reached out... People close by and people far away... People who want to fix my faucet and people who want to mow my yard... People who collect half gallon jugs so we can make apple cider with our apples... People who want to sit with Harvey and visit... People who walk my dog and bring me doughnuts... People who send me wine... People who drop my dry cleaning off and bring us soup... People from far away who want to feed my family pizza. People who organize all the people.  People I don't even know! People who pray for us all. 

And somehow I think that everybody in many different ways just wants to make a difference... We can't ever really change the outcome of this story, but we can make the journey less scary....and that's what all of y'all are doing. 

I will never, ever be able to express the deep gratitude that I feel for all of your love. 

Some of you may not be Christians or even believe in God at all, but I will say that, for me, God is in all of the love we've felt... This is the best kinda church service ever. 


Kate said...

Yes, Carrie. This is how I see God too. In the love we have for each other.

Kate said...

This is what church is to me too. The love and caring of each other. So glad you have so many in your congregation.

Daniel Hotei said...

I'm glad to hear you have such a loving community around you. I just read your note about your husband going into hospice; I'm so sorry to hear it. Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Mom was in hospice in Atlanta; it felt much better than being in hospital; I remember with Dad to visit parishioners in hospice when we stayed with them down in Florida.

Unknown said...

Carrie, please know that many people you do not know have admired Harvey for years. I am in awe of your braveness. Many healing thoughts and prayers are coming your way. Your communication and strength has shown us what love and family can do to face illness, even when the outcome is not what we are praying for. Jane

judith said...

Love will carry you through. Love makes us strong and will not fail us. Your family and friends are here for you.

Brenda Nordin said...

Oh, my, Carrie!! I have tears in my eyes and am speechless as I read your words!! As "unknown" said, "your communication and strength has shown me what love can do to face illness, even when the outcome is not what we are praying for"..... I continue to pray for you and your family, and feel peace knowing that you are blessed with such wonderful, dear friends who are there for you like family would be if they could! Wish I loved closer so I could sub for Laura with a hug!! Just know we love you!!!